Anxious

I’m a worrier. Maybe a warrior too, but I’m on alert cuz I worry that as a warrior I’m outmatched and “outgunned”.

I’m neurotic/sensitive, and I felt that my best option was to flee. Flee what? Read the world news. I’m in a safer country, for now. It may not be so in another year or 2.

Anyways, I noticed that I tend to be a loner, cuz I worry about what others think of me, I’m aware of my quirks and bad habits, and that I take up space. So I tend to be aloof and keep distance. And I can be very quiet.

So what do I worry about? The usual existential stuff, probably more than the average person. I’m trying think of a way to make more money, and failing so far at that. I have limited options with that.

So, yes. Anxious. There’s always something to be anxious about with me. I work with it now, instead of trying to relieve/reduce it.

At least that I’m in a better place than last month, so that helps my mood.