It’s true. I’m trying to monetize my WordPress blog, which I started in October 2025. I planned on relying on donations for my writing, which mostly focuses on poverty relief. How much have I made so far for the articles I posted? Zero!
I’ll admit that I used AI generated content for some of the articles I posted. I just wrote the prompts, edited the generated content as needed, and copy and pasted the articles to my blog space. But some articles I wrote myself.
I’m in fact losing some money from paying for Blaze advertising at times, paying for the WordPress domain, and then paid for the AI writing app. I also at times spend money to make certain recipes or go to events, and then write about them later.
I also admit that I have the financial means to support myself now so I can write about different subjects. But my experience so far with blog writing has been discouraging, if I focus more on earning a living from writing.
I recently read a social media post about someone else who tried and failed to make money online. It can be very hard, almost impossible if someone can’t invest massively in advertising or a lucrative service and/or product.
Anyways, as far as jobs I would do for free that exist in real life, that are worth the stress and investment of time and effort? Not many. Maybe a club DJ, an astronaut, or a male porn star. The fringe benefits have to be worth it. Which of those 3 are more likely to happen in my lifetime though?
I struggle to recall the names of any of my prior teachers, and I had many of course. I went to public school, and I can only remember Ms. Lloyd-Jones, my kindergarten teacher. I think I only remember her name because it was hyphenated.
I admit that I was barely above average as a student, but I learned better outside of school. And I have an unconventional education. Years of public school, a military apprenticeship mostly learning cooking, an associate’s degree in Computer Information Systems (not financially lucrative yet), and I dropped out of getting a bachelor’s degree in Technical Writing, but I only had a year left in getting one.
I remember Jean-Claude, the French Chef who had a gentle way of teaching military cooks to improve on cooking methods. He was a mentor and supervisor, but I didn’t know him well. He had advice that I still remember.
But I would say Leonardo (Da Vinci) was my best overall teacher, even though he lived centuries ago. He was more than an artist, from what I read of him. He worked in different fields, and for some reason I find him fascinating. Mainly for his designs of flying machines, anatomy drawing, and mechanical devices. I saw how gears, ropes, frames, and pulleys worked together for a certain purpose.
I think I’m a dreamer like he was, and it’s only in recent years I’ve been dabbling in different fields like video generation, robotics, AI generated projects, music, experimenting with food recipes, painting, and writing. My blog counts.
The most influential Leonardo quote I remember? “It’s not enough to know. We must also do.”
I was able to visit the Leonardo Da Vinci Science and Technology Museum in Milan earlier this month, and I mostly went to take photos and absorb info so I can be inspired to make my own inventions and designs. Yes, I have some ideas I want to work on. Let’s see if I can succeed.
There’s 2 versions of compliments I’ve gotten. One is a “clean” version, and then there is a more inappropriate compliment. But both were from women I knew.
The “clean” version of a compliment I’ve received, that I actually took to heart, is a female coworker called me creative. I was in the Air Force then working at a fitness center, and I have more of an Arty/Nerdy vibe. I believe the young woman was of a junior rank and is Hispanic. She was hanging out at the fitness center cuz her boyfriend at the time worked there, and we were chatting about different things, and she called me more of a creative type without me mentioning that I’m like that. I talk about music, movies, video games, TV shows, pop culture in general often, and I’m a fan of comedy. So I appreciated the compliment.
I’ve been called a good person before, but I never think I’m good enough. And I am flawed and a constant work in progress (I can’t always help others, as an example.)
The more inappropriate version of a compliment I’ve gotten was from an ex girlfriend, near fiance. You can probably see where this is going, so maybe some of you more sensitive readers should stop reading by now.
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For those who really want to know, and have their curiosity sated, she said that she had the best sex she ever had with me. And sometimes she would call me handsome and good looking , even though I don’t think I am. And although we broke up, I still think about her, and wish that things went differently than they did.
I’m thinking about her again. Maybe in time I’ll write about my ex more in detail, cuz it was the most complicated relationship I ever had by far.
You’re going on a cross-country trip. Airplane, train, bus, car, or bike?
I have experience with all forms of the listed transportation, but it depends on the country I’m in.
The US unfortunately doesn’t have a good train network compared to Europe, but if it’s more affordable and accessible to take the train, I’ll do it. I will take flights to different cities if there are no train routes there.
Buses I will take only for shorter distances, say no more than 100 miles one way. I once took a longer round trip from Little Rock to Chicago by bus, and I found the experience unpleasant. Every single bus there and back was late, sometimes by over an hour. The rest stops were too brief, and sometimes the buses would be stuck in traffic congestion. I got too stressed, so no more of that.
A round trip by Amtrak from Little Rock to Milwaukee was more of a pleasant experience. I’d recommend trips by train whenever possible, even though it can take almost a day to travel one way.
If I’m not rushed to go to a specific city or destination, I’ll take the scenic route by train. A flight otherwise, and then a bus is my last option. Bikes and cars only for shorter trips of no more than 5 miles, if I can help it.
What movies or TV series have you watched more than 5 times?
Oh, I got a list alright. Prepare yourself for the Nerd List:
The Simpsons
Scooby Doo
Alien
Aliens
Star Wars (all of non Disney movies except for Rogue One)
Predator
The Lord of the Rings
The Indiana Jones original trilogy
Anchorman
Beetlejuice
Terminator 1 and 2
The Matrix
Airplane!
The Thing
Halloween
Dawn of the Dead
Pee Wee’s Big Adventure
Seinfeld
Family Guy
Goodfellas
Forrest Gump
The Exorcist
Fright Night
The 40 Year Old Virgin
Fargo
The Big Lebowski
Silence of the Lambs
The Cosby Show
American Werewolf in London
Edward Scissorhands
There’s probably more movies and shows I forgot to list, but these are the main ones. Note that there isn’t many indie movies or art films among the list. Some foreign films I only saw once.
Which animal would you compare yourself to and why?
The bear comes easy as an answer, and I guess I’m more like a black bear than a brown or polar bear, or any of the other species. Let me explain the ways:
I’m fairly big and hairy, with dark fur. I can eat a lot, and I gained some weight for the winter. I’ll try to lose it in coming months. I tend to be less active and sleep more during the winters, almost like a state of torpor hibernation.
I’m fairly docile and sometimes even timid, except when I’m not. I will flee threats in most cases, but I will fight back if cornered or to protect the ones I care about.
What else? I tend to be picky about what I eat, but I like tasty high fat, sugary, and salty foods. I can eat a whole lot of berries. I’m not much of a runner, but I can sprint at times.
I lived in (man) caves, and often alone (not always).
So I’m somewhat cuddly and somewhat deadly. LOOK OUT!🐻
I would spree shop at Costco, or any similar store in other countries. I could afford to pay the annual membership, and I’d get more value for my money. I agree more with Costco’s business practices than I do with Walmart/Sam’s Club. I currently don’t have a membership with Costco or any other big bulk store. I’d buy in bulk several products, including some new electronics.
Fun fact: I had an encounter with the then Costco CEO James Sinegal years ago. I was working as a temp worker at a newly opened Costco, serving refreshments with other temp workers, and he greeted the temp workers at the serving tables. I recognized him before from a segment on 60 Minutes news show, and he seemed to be a pleasant enough man. American companies could learn from his way of doing business.
It seemed that Sinegal retired soon after that Grand Opening of the Costco, but he’s still alive.
Costco is the easy answer, Sam’s Club my second choice.
What is your middle name? Does it carry any special meaning/significance?
York is my middle name, and it was my father’s first name. I think one of my nephews also has that middle name.
The name is ancient, and it evolved from the Brittonic Celtic word Eboracon, which I read means Yew Tree Place. It has British and Norse origins. Of course, there’s modern cities with either York as a full name or part of the name. British-American usage in the modern world.
My first name means a channel of water, my middle name means an area of a bunch of trees, and my last name comes from one of the main disciples of The Nazarene. Maybe it has some significance, but I doubt my parents put that much thought into my full name.
So yes, I probably have some British and Scandinavian ancestry, base on ancestry research I’ve done on my dad’s side of the family. But York is an unusual name in modern times. I sometimes make jokes about my middle name or middle initial.
I had no idea how Eburācon became Eboracum, then Eoforwīc, then Jórvík, and finally York. They don’t even have much similarity, and I never encountered those specific words before.
Yes, I had to use the internet to research the origin of my second name: A place of Yew Trees. What the hell is that?!
I’m currently staying in a hotel in another country, and it seems at night the front entrance is locked for security reasons. My first night here, I was trying to go outside to vape at 10pm, but the door can’t open. There is an button near it, so I press it. The door is still locked; I can’t open it still.
There’s a woman at reception, telling me something in a language I can’t hear or understand much of. I wear hearing aids due to moderate to severe hearing loss, but I didn’t have them in cuz I just wanted to vape outside and I take the hearing aids out when they get uncomfortable after awhile, or I turn in for the night.
After some time of me being puzzled, the woman walks to the front door, presses the button and opens the door at the same time. Oh, thank you! I say in the language I have limited knowledge of.
I learned at least one thing, technically 3. One thing is that I learned how to open that hotel entrance door by pressing that electronic button and opening the door at the same time, that specific method. The other thing is that I should wear my hearing aids any time I expect to be around any other people, cuz I never know when I’m gonna have to hear or speak to other people, and the last thing is I need to learn more of that language I took 2 high school courses and having a basic proficiency in decades ago.
I’m vague about where I am cuz of the interesting times we live in.
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain.
There’s variations of this question, but it’s a common one that happens the most often that irks me. Homeless or needy people asking me for any help I can offer. Advertising, political ads, and fundraisers asking me for buy or give. Sometimes friends or family will ask me to help them out. There’s various other examples.
I have a limited income, and while it’s enough to support myself, I have to go without certain indulgences. I try to be frugal and yet I can be generous at times
The problem is, while I can be generous and have a history of volunteering, there’s limits to my generosity. Like, I can give 2$ to a panhandler at times, but I can’t give the person 20$ or more. At least not too often. I definitely can’t buy the person a new home or even a hotel room for the night. And I can’t afford to give 2$ to 20 or more panhandlers in a day. That has happened before when I’m in cities.
Another example. There is an annual pledge drive from a famous website that I and millions of others use and appreciate. I have donated smaller amounts at times, but I can’t afford to do larger donations every year. I also can’t afford to give to various fundraisers, only maybe one or 2 per year. There’s times when my bank account is close to going negative.
I have a hard time saying “no”. There’s often a social pressure to say yes and give money to help others, buy certain products or services, or donate to different causes or political parties and candidates. I try to use my own judgement. I buy, donate, or give when I can afford it, but I can’t always afford it.
So I end up feeling a lament that my generosity isn’t enough, or my income is too meager to make a big difference in someone’s life with my income, buy a more expensive product/service, or to support a cause I wish that I could. I buy/donate/give to a certain point, but if I go over that limit, I go into survival mode and start saying no or declining more often.
So there’s a struggle in me between altruism and selfishness. It’s partly why keep to myself much of the time, or I have to cut people off if I’m asked to give more.
The main reason I struggle with my generosity is, if I ever need financial help, I too often can’t find it. I’m lucky to have the income I have now, cuz I know there’s people living with much less.
Describe the most ambitious DIY project you’ve ever taken on.
I’m a fairly creative person. I’m not highly creative; I know that there’s people out there who are more so. But I have written certain papers and I’m technically published, cooked different foods, created my own songs, painted and drew over the years, gathered supplies for my own Halloween costumes and makeup, and I’m dabbling in AI generated written articles, images, and videos.
I also “drew” the first few pages of a comic book that went nowhere when I was a teenager.
However, I would say that my robot hobby is the most ambitious project I’ve done. Yes, I build kits and sets, although I have tried to make simple designs using a single hobby motor, gears, and hobby supplies like glue, paper clips, plastic lids, and popsicle sticks.
Robotics is one of my special interests, and I’m proud that I was able to complete 8 robot projects, although I made several more science based mechanisms, and I had some botched projects.
The most ambitious robot was a black plexiglass Hexapod (six legs). 13 motors, LED lights, an Ultrasonic sensor, and a Arduino clone circuit. It did require programming in C++ and Python.
That was a difficult project, and while it could move somewhat, and I could make the LED lights turn on, it couldn’t move fully. I was disappointed of what I could do with the Hexapod kit, so I ended up discarding it during a move.
Robotics is hard, but I’m proud of what I could do with little formal education, and limited resources. I know that there’s robots currently being made that are more advanced and expensive than what I made, but I was able to accomplish things I couldn’t dream about 15 years ago.
For example, I built a type of robot that I could voice control using an app, and a “Whegged”robot that could crawl on different terrain like grass and rocky terrain. I made a cargo type of treaded robot that could carry lightweight objects like drinks and articles of clothing.
I’ll keep dreaming and trying new things. Maybe it can lead to something in the future.
What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?
I’m currently in a country with a Mediterranean climate, even though it’s technically winter here. Not too hot, not too cold. It rarely snows here, although a jacket and knit cap may be required during the night time. I dealt with frigid temperatures before, so it’s comfortable enough here.
However, next month I’m traveling to a country with a tropical climate, and it’s hot and humid almost all year. Near unbearable heat, similar to Miami weather.
I’ve endured extreme heat and cold before, but that climate is something else.
I’ve been to the country before last year, and I tried everything to stay cool without access to more expensive air conditioning. Drinking ice water and cold drinks, wearing shorts and t-shirts, swimming and showering several times a day, having a fan close by blowing wind on me, staying in shade, and minimizing my activity outside. Having a frozen water bottle cool me down. Very little relief, still sweating like crazy.
It got to the point where I was suffering heat stress and developing health issues. So after 3 weeks, I finally gave in and stayed in lodging with regular air conditioning. Finally, some real relief, and my health improved.
I plan to stay in this country for 6 months, at least! Possibly longer. I don’t like extreme hot or frigid weather, but between the two, I’ll chose the hotter weather. At least I don’t have to deal with the snow and gloom.
I don’t know how the local people tolerate the climate, but they adapted well enough that they can wear long shirts and pants outside. And here I am from a Midwestern climate, sweating buckets minutes after being outside in shorts and a t-shirt.
And it could get even hotter in coming years! Yes, a challenge I’ll try to meet. I still like being in the country though, I just complain about the climate. I’ll manage somehow.
Oh, I would have to make a list of the things I would tell my younger self. But I’ll start with changing the mindset about loneliness. Being alone can be an advantage in some ways , and I developed in such a way that I can tolerate isolation better than others. Maybe not try so hard to make friends and date. It will happen in time with less pressure.
Save money as much as possible. I fell for the materialistic creed, and thought that I would always be fairly comfortable financially. There were definitely lean times in my life, and there may be more in the future. So try to be more frugal.
Study engineering in university. I wouldn’t say that I have a talent in engineering, more like a general interest that could have developed further with formal schooling. Maybe I could have worked as in robotics, materials science, or even in artificial intelligence. There’s more opportunities for engineers than the other fields I studied.
Don’t smoke or toke, no matter how stressed or upset you get. I developed bad habits in my late teens and twenties, mainly cuz I don’t cope with stress well. I didn’t know that those habits would cause more stress and difficulty over time, plus I would be able to save money if I didn’t develop those habits. I didn’t fully understand how a mind could be addicted to substances.
Read more science and philosophy. I read a lot, but the stuff I was reading as a teenager is different than what I read now. I would recommend Bertrand Russell, Arthur Schopenhaur, Albert Camus, and maybe some other ones, since their works would help me understand the world better, and help me cope with problems I would have throughout my life. I could have developed a different mentality.
Walk more, and be more creative. I still love music, but I can barely play. I could have developed my music skill more, maybe using studio software. And walking and biking seem to exercise that I can tolerate. Paint, draw, and write, maybe some opportunities would come up.
So, what bores me? It’s more like what doesn’t bore me. I have been more selective of how I spend my free time.
Formal education bores me. I went to school for several years, including a technical college and university. Going to lectures, listening to 2 or 3 professors or teaching assistants per day lecture for hours at a time, sometimes reading about subjects that can be tedious. It often took an innovative or charismatic teacher for me to pay attention in class, or I took a course that I have familiarity and interest in.
Sports bore me. While some people find athletic teams and individuals fascinating, I often don’t. It’s more like I count how many sport injuries can happen during a game or match.
Many television shows and oftentimes movies can bore me. Television comedies seem to be my go-to, but it has to be very funny for me to keep sustained interest.
While I used to like movies, I think I saw so many over decades that I can predict plot twists and movie tropes. I maybe see one or 2 movies a year now, and they tend to be the blockbuster type of film. I was bored seeing the second Avatar movie, it was so long.
I read everyday, but I find books boring now. I don’t think I have the attention span to read novels, but I will read the occasional non-fiction book. I may not finish though, but I will read up on summaries and profound quotes after. And certain articles are Too Long; Didn’t Read, so I’ll skip to the last 2 paragraphs.
I tended to job hop after 18 months-2 years in most cases, cuz I would grow bored with the routine over time. I would get excited at first once I got a job, I would then learn the routines, and over time have contempt over the routine. And often the pay wasn’t good enough for me to tolerate the stress and boredom and stay longer.
What else? Some music genres can be uninteresting for me, like Country music, Folk, Jazz. While I was a fan of the early days of Rap and HipHop, it seems like even the modern artists these days are going through the motions.
I partly left the US cuz I found my newer residence boring. When shopping and eating are the main pastimes there, I was ready to move after 5 years. Nice weather though.
Maybe it’s me. I lived too long, had my fill of experiences, and became burnt out and world weary. It’s harder to find interesting things about living on Earth. I will probably dabble more in virtual reality in the near future, if I can afford it. Longing for the Holo-Deck, or Death. Whichever comes first….
I have a cup of coffee near me now. Instant coffee and heated mineral water, a little milk, and I currently don’t add sugar, or add a little sweetener. I probably drink way too much coffee. When I brew coffee, I can easily drink a pot or more a day.
I do like other drinks, like Soda (Pop), fruit juices, alcoholic beverages, tea at times. Milk I only drink if I can get a gallon jug of it, otherwise I use it for cereal or for cooking. But since I have been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, I limit consuming the other drinks.
Coffee is relatively affordable, healthy, and a comfort to drink. It’s possible that I self medicate and stimulate with coffee due to my autism and possible ADHD, but it probably does contribute to whatever sleep and anxiety problems I have.
My parents and grandparents were coffee drinkers, and I’m currently in a country with several cafes. I tend to make my own brews though to save money. I don’t mind Espresso, but my go to coffee is brewed American style. I feel like I get my money’s worth, even though it’s just extra water.
Coffee has been repeatedly proven to have several antioxidants and can offer resistance against several diseases and increase lifespan. And perhaps the coffee grounds can be used as a bio-char to add to strengthen concrete. So there’s probably a good reason why I drink so much coffee.
Tell us about your favorite pair of shoes, and where they’ve taken you.
I’m not picky when it comes to shoes, which seems to be a problem for my brothers. As long as they are affordable and they fit me, I’ll wear them. However, the best pair of shoes I ever owned were dark blue, black, and gray Dockers Hiking boots.
I didn’t buy the high rise shoes myself, but rather they were a Christmas gift from my youngest brother some years ago. He most of all would complain about me buying cheaper lower quality shoes that I tended to wear longer than the time they should have been replaced.
I liked the stylish almost futuristic design, they were snug and comfortable, and looked good with various articles of clothes. They kept my feet warm and dry, especially while walking in several inches of snow during the winter. The soles had good grip on ice and other slippery surfaces.
While I wish that I can say that I traveled far and wide in different countries while wearing those shoes, but in most cases I wore the boots around my hometown. I wore them when I went to bars and clubs, wore them outside during the winter and walked in puddles and grassy areas, and when I visited family and friends. I’m sure I wore them at work when I was allowed to.
I kept the higher quality boots for over 2 years, probably closer to 3 years, but I eventually replaced the hiking boots cuz they were worn out and uncomfortable to my feet. And I’m sure that I went back to the affordable lower quality shoes. Hey, old habits die hard.
I went to ShowTime Pizza Place as a kid, likely after getting on my parents’ case begging to go. I remember being told no more than once, they can’t afford it. Understandable now, I didn’t understand at 8 years old. 50$ was a bigger chunk of change then.
ShowTime Pizza was a family friendly Pizzeria with a gimmick. It had a video game arcade with many of the most popular cabinet video games at the time- Pac-Man, Space Invaders, Donkey Kong, Joust, Defender, Burger Time, Sinistar and so on. Maybe some more obscure games that I don’t remember playing.
It also had a dining hall with a stage featuring singing and talking Animatronic Animal Characters, like Billy Bob Brockali, Looney Bird, Rolfe DeWolfe, and various other animal characters. These animatronic characters, along with the Chuck E Cheese Animatronics, were the inspiration for the antagonistic robots in Five Nights at Freddies “horror” movies and video games.
No, I never thought the animatronics were creepy. I thought of the furry characters as robots, which I continue to be fascinated by.
Anyways, my parents gave in, and I was able to go to ShowBiz Pizza Place for my 9th birthday. I remember the Pepperoni pizza and pitchers of Pepsi were tasty enough for a grade school kid. I remember being proud that I could eat 4 slices of pizza then.
I loved the video games, of course, and tried and failed to play the Legendary laser disk game Dragon’s Lair. I loved the Don Bluth animation, and that game ate up many of the tokens my parents gave me. I couldnt go far with that game though.
But what I remember the most about that pizza party at ShowBiz Pizza, was during the birthday meal, “The Rock-afire Explosion” band “talked and sang” to me directly to wish me a happy birthday. And I remember being touched by the nice gesture and being near tears that my parents cared enough about me to arrange the birthday shout-out with the Pizzeria staff.
So, yes, I enjoyed my time at ShowBiz Pizza, and I understand that it later merged With Chuck E. Cheese Pizza. One of those nostalgic fond memories, and it also contributed to my interests in robots, video games, comedy, and good food.
I live on 2 pensions, and I’m grateful I have them. I’m a disabled veteran with a good number of invisible disabilities. Maybe the fact that I wear hearing aids is the most evidence that I have a long list of physical, psychological, and neurological disabilities.
Unfortunately, I have debt and bills, but I live a decent lifestyle so far. About a third of my monthly income goes towards debt, phone bill, insurance, and other fees, a third goes towards rent and other expenses, and then a third on food, transportation, entertainment options.
Every month, I use the calculator on my phone to figure out my monthly budget. It’s based on financial anxiety, cuz I try to figure out my expenses after I pay my bills and rent, and see if I have enough to have any disposable income.
The expenses vary month to month. Some months I stick to a budget, other times I go over and have to use credit or cut expenses elsewhere. I cook my own meals more often (food service experience has come in handy), I tend to buy the cheapest food products of foods I will likely eat. I will shop at thrift stores and discount supermarkets. I buy the cheapest brand of cigarettes, or switch to vaping if it’s the cheaper option.
I have a smaller amount left over for fun money, and sometimes I help out family and friends. I’m treading water financially, but I lived through worse. It’s at the point where I’m looking into passive income and side gig work.
I wish that I was better with money, but at the same time don’t want to give up certain comforts and conveniences. I have made small investments that I hope pay off, and I hope that I have the wisdom, connections, and funds to see a good bargain or opportunity in the future.
If there were a biography about you, what would the title be?
I had to think about this prompt question for awhile, but The Observer is probably the best title for a biography I could come up with. Maybe if I’m ever worthy of someone writing my biography, the author can think of a better one. But it’s a safe yet honest title.
I’m not famous or infamous (yet), and as much as I’d like to be remarkable somehow, I’m likely unremarkable in every way. I have a certain skill set that’s probably outdated in the 21st century, but what I do best no matter what is observe.
I’m an introvert, although I sometimes wish that I wasn’t. I can be quiet, and passive to a fault. And I’m alone most of the time, although I do attempt to be social. However, I observe people and see mostly mundane behavior, although there were moments where I saw violent or unusual behavior from a distance.
I observe animals, wild or domesticated, doing their own things, I observe the daily life of cities and towns, cars passing, people walking, sometimes with pets, children, or companions. I detect stimuli through whatever functional senses I have left. I see debris and garbage around, and I’ll pick it up and dump it if I’m in the mood. And I observe whatever scenery I’m around when I’m outside. I’ll observe nature do its thing, but I have been in various environments and climates. Deserts, temperate forests, mountainous regions, larger cities, beaches, tropical areas, and green fields.
Oh, I’ve been on the outskirts of historical events or situations at times, but not as any of the main “actors”. Again, just observing the good, bad, and neutral among people, places and things.
Sometimes I’ll write about it or photo/video record it. So far, it hasn’t led to anything special or lucrative. And based on prior evidence, I doubt that it lead to anything special in the future. I could be wrong though. Here’s hoping!
Unfortunately, my father died at 48, when I was 11. I so far outlived my father by 4 years, although I have many of the same vices he had that likely contributed to his early death by cancer. Smoking, drinking, probably not having the healthiest diet, although I made changes here and there. I’m eating oatmeal and flax seeds more often!
As for my mother, she was working as a property manager at a senior residential apartment until her own death of cancer. It was work, talking to the senior residents at the property, talking to family and friends, watching TV shows, cooking and baking her favorite recipes, listening to her favorite song playlists on the internet, smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee. The bright spot of her later years was family.
My mother remarried twice after my dad died, and her second marriage was ending around that time. It was amicable; she and her husband at that time were working different shifts, and weren’t spending much time with each other. And they did have different backgrounds, and probably didn’t have much in common otherwise.
The second oldest brother got married, and had 2 sons, and my mother was thrilled to have babies in her life again. She would spend time with my nephews, and of course baby sat at times. Being around little kids was a joy, and she would beam in many of the family photos taken during that time.
I’m trying to value what time I have left on this rock, not sure how much time I have left. But I have changed since my mother died. ~H
I’m not a home owner and never been a homeowner, and I prefer to rent. There’s advantages to renting. But if I could afford my dream home, it would be a modular home. Those interest me, what I know of them. The capacity to add on more square footage to a home, maybe one bedroom to start, and adding 2 or more bedrooms over time. The beds are comfortable memory foam.
I would like the home to be energy independent and efficient, so I would add solar panels, solar heating, and battery storage. Also heat pumps depending on what region of the world I would live.
I would like to have the property on at least 2 acres of land, with a garden to grow plants, vegetables, and maybe even egg laying chickens.
To prepare for any potential emergencies, I would like to have an emergency shelter buried deep underground, with water filters and a storage of non perishable food that can be stored for several weeks, maybe up to a year.
I would like a spacious living room with a decent entertainment center and comfortable seating, although I don’t need the state of the art with that. Just a game console or 2, and the ability to stream movies. But I prefer to have a fully equipped kitchen with a decent refrigerator and freezer. I or my potential spouse will try to cook more meals at home.
It would be nice to live in a pleasant suburb near a large city, like Chicago, Las Vegas, or Boston. Maybe possibly in another country, since I’ve been traveling.
I would like to have WIFI throughout the home, of course.
A balcony and/or patio, with the ability to grill out if I wanted to. A fenced in backyard, and in a decent neighborhood. And this dream home probably already costs at least a million dollars in the US. It’s good to dream though.
Something on your “to-do list” that never gets done.
I’m curious about my genetic history, including my full ethnic background going back hundreds or even thousands of years , and my genetic propensity for certain diseases and conditions that may happen in the future. So I would in time like to get a DNA test done. I keep on putting it off.
I already participated in 2 genetic studies that use genetic samples I’ve given- SPARK and the Million Veteran Program- because I’m an US veteran with an Autistm Spectrum Disorder. Unfortunately, the results of my donated DNA aren’t available to me, since it’s confidential information. But I would l like to do a private DNA test.
So why haven’t I done a DNA test yet? It’s always a money problem. I never seem to have enough money to pay for a DNA test. And as I understand, 23 & Me is one of few private companies that offer analysis of DNA samples, but it recently had financial woes.
Getting a DNA test done is more of a want than a need. One of these days, I’ll get a test done. I hope so.
Game consoles are technically computers- in which case my first computer was an Atari 2400 back in 1982. My parents bought it for my brothers and I. We were thrilled, and the whole family enjoyed playing games like Pac-Man and Space Invaders, and lesser known games like Yar’s Revenge and Pitfall. None of us knew then how advanced video games and computers would be in that future.
As for my first personal computer, it was an HP desktop that my mother and I split the costs on. My mother was being treated for cancer, and I lived with her to assist her while going to University. The desktop ran on a Windows Vista operating system. Even though I had an Information Technology related degree in 2003, I couldn’t afford to get my own computer until 2007.
I was more experienced with computers than my mother was, so I would show her at times certain websites and apps. I did college homework and research, read news articles, watched videos, listened to music, and used early era social media, while my mother mostly played video games and went on Social media.
My mother died of cancer in 2009, so the desktop PC became mine. I kept that computer as long as I could, even though it was running very slow by then. The PC was discarded in 2019 during a move out of state.
I’m not a Sports guy, even though I have family members who are, and I come from a American city with 2 major league teams. One team even won a Championship in recent years.
It’s not if I never watched sports. They don’t interest me. Football, Soccer, Baseball, Golf, Boxing, and Mixed Martial Arts matches and games are hard to avoid on big screen televisions in numerous bars and restaurants. I rather play a video game or watch a movie though.
However, Baseball is probably my favorite, since I understand how the game is played, I can play it and I’m not terrible unlike other sports, and I’ve been to some games, including major league games. But I don’t follow closely, and I don’t care who wins. I know that makes me part of the minority.
Understand, I don’t play the lottery or gamble all that much. I know that the odds of winning a good sum of money from the lottery are really bad, and I maybe gamble once or twice a year at a casino, and it’s been small amounts that I can part with.
I know that I can get out of control with gambling, but I think over time, I’m out 200$ between my lifetime winnings and losses. The most I ever won was over 400$ in Las Vegas, and I bowed out and paid bills soon after.
However, if I did win a jackpot or even 100,000$, I would pay off any debt, give gifts to my family and friends. Maybe 2000$-$5000 each, depending on the winning amount. I would donate to some charities and the underdog political party of my choice, and then buy a ticket to The Netherlands or a Caribbean region country, get an investment visa, and try to live a comfortable and peaceful middle class lifestyle for the rest of my life. Invest and save a sum if I have any money left over. Of course, pay any necessary taxes.
Of course I’d buy stuff, and I have my eye on some pricy items. No house or car though.
Oh, and if I ever did ever win the big jackpot, I’m choosing the installment pay option. I don’t want to get too stupid with a large amount of money.
And the dream bubble popped! Back to a humble existence. ~H
What do you enjoy doing most in your leisure time?
It’s true. I read a lot, and the internet has plenty of reading material. I learn about various subjects of interest, and will occasionally read about subjects that doesn’t necessarily interest me, yet has interesting click bait headlines. Like I probably have more knowledge about nutrition, life hacks, and epidemiology than the average person.
Theres videos, images, music and audio files, various apps like video games. I don’t even use streaming apps so much, but I could use them if I wanted to.
I’m using AI apps more often, cuz I do queries for information, or it visualizes ideas I have. Yes, I have a distrust for AI, but curiosity got the best of me. And I have a rationale for using it as much as I have.
Oh, I have family and a few friends. I’m not around them as much as I like, but I’ll text or video chat with them.
Like many people, I’m on my phone or computer often, cuz it helps with boredom. Like cigarettes for me, the internet is the friend that’s always there. It has enriched my life in certain ways, although there are some aspects of IT tech that annoy or disturb me. Other parts I plain don’t use.
Because of the Internet, I’m more knowledgeable about various subjects. I have my favorite apps and websites. The Internet is a positive in my life. Now if only I can figure out a way to make a better livelihood using it….
Name an attraction or town close to home that you still haven’t got around to visiting.
I’m actually a perpetual tourist now, so this is a complicated answer. I’m country hopping partly because the United States has gotten too expensive for someone on a limited income. But I was born and raised in Milwaukee.
There was a good number of attractions that Milwaukee has that I never visited. It was partly because I live on a lower income, and could only afford to visit places that actually interested me. But the War Museum near the Lake Michigan lakefront was a place I would be close to but never visited, and the Pabst Mansion was another. Both buildings contain a lot of history. I also don’t drive, so I couldn’t afford to stay longer in nearby towns like Kenosha and Racine.
I tend to be a home body, partly because I associate going outside for prolonged periods of time with spending money! Seriously, if I want to go somewhere else besides my local neighborhood, I more often than not have to spend money. It adds up.
Anyways, I’m currently in a Central European country with its own history and attractions. I’ll try to visit the Bunk Art museum attraction sometime during my stay here, but I already been here over 2 months, and I still can’t afford to visit yet!
I’m hoping to check out the unique architecture and exhibits in the largest city next month, even if it’s a one day tour. So many places to visit, but so little time and money.
4. Nightlife- clubs, bars, and lounges. Sometimes concerts. It’s getting less fun as I get older.
5. Private vices. I gave up one, but not the other. I may take up the other one again if I can find a reliable plug. 😉 2026 isn’t looking much better than 2025 so far.
Ok, this is a different blog post than some of the others on my HETTY blog, in that it’s robot themed.
I have had a strong interest in robotics since I’ve been a kid, and I never outgrew it. However, I never formally studied Robotic engineering, only studied for a measly associates degree in Computer Information Systems. What robots I have made are from buying kits and sets, reading books about robots or watching videos on social media. I also have limited programming ability, but I tried to work around that. So either limited preset instructions, or using a remote control..
I finished about 8 designs that can be qualified as true robots, in that they can be programmed, and they have sensors. Sometimes it’s only one or two sensors, but that’s enough for most purposes. Other designs are really just robot like machines with interesting engineering or science behind them, but cant be programmed or controlled. Just an on and off switch, or a light activated solar cell.
Most of these designs are mostly plastic, and on the cheaper side. The most expensive set I did buy was 500$, the LEGO Mindstorms EV1 set. Considering that there’s more deluxe robots with multiple motors and processors with costs that are at least 10,000$, I think robots in the 30$ to 500$ range is a bargain.
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So here’s photos of my designs. Very limited utility, limited battery life, and not very durable. But all of the robots or machines on this blog post could move, and some can be programmed or controlled. Videos of the design demos can be found on social media apps like Facebook, TikTok, and YouTube.
This last one is perhaps the best designed one I made, in that it’s has a more simple design, and yet it could move on different types of terrain. A whegged robot that moved 6 actuators on only 2 motors.
So should I keep up with my hobby, or are these designs not that impressive?
This is the choice I had as a senior in high school back in 1991, about to graduate and make my own way in the world. My dad died when I was 11, so my mother worked a lot trying to support my 2 brothers and I. Since it was a struggle to support the family on a single income, my mother gave me the choice of either joining the military, where I could learn a job skill or several through apprenticeships, or stay with my mom and brothers, and go to college for a formal education while she paid for my tuition and books. Maybe I could work a job to help with the fees.
I had my reasons to join the military after high school graduation, one of them being that I didn’t want to burden my mother with the extra expenses of school. Learning a job skill, seeing the world, maybe toughening up some since I was a gawky nerd while in public school. I was very green, naive, and sheltered. But I would qualify for the Montgomery GI Bill, if I joined the military. I could go to college later, if I chose so. (I did, 10 years later.)
Was the Air Force a good experience? Yes, and no. I met some good people, did go to different parts of the US and some other countries, learned how to be a professional military cook and basic service specialist, learned some military culture and lingo, and didn’t screw up so much that I was able to get an honorable discharge after 2 terms of service. It was sometimes stressful, sometimes loud enough that I developed tinnitus from the noise of war machinery, and I had to cope with the politics (workplace and geopolitical). I also developed habits like smoking and the occasional binge drinking, and I became more jaded and vigilant. I wasn’t burned out yet, but I lost a spark I had at 18.
I started to go college when I was 27, sometimes older than the other students. While I did study and did well enough in some courses, there was some other courses I couldn’t keep up with, or in some cases was completely lost. Astrophysics 2 showed that I’m terrible in advanced math, and intermediate algebra seems to be my limit.
I got so burnt out from reading college textbooks that I don’t have the attention span for reading books anymore. I’ll read online summaries or specific quotes or facts about a topic instead. I ended up dropping out of getting a bachelors degree partly cuz my grades weren’t good enough (with autistic spikes), and I couldn’t afford to finish college.
So why would I chose college over the military after highschool? Money, time, and energy. I was more energetic, healthy, and idealistic at 17-18 years old than I was at 27-28, college was cheaper (yet still costly), and I would spend more time with my family. I would probably have a better formal education than I do now, maybe working as an engineer or professional writer. I also probably wouldn’t have developed the wanderlust I have for travel if I just stayed in my hometown, instead of the 7 countries I was able to visit while in the military.
I’m not sure if it was a better choice, but maybe I would have chosen a different fork in the road knowing what I know now.
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